I always felt difficulty in deciding whether I believe in GOD or not. Today for a moment, I felt I do not believe in GOD. because My brain is so much screwed with the fact that human is born. This always throws one big doubt in me. To whom GOD is born. If I go on thinking on this It will be endless thought. In this respect, Recently one incident took place in One of the villages of India.
one family consist of two employed parents, one daughter and son. Daughter studying first year of graduation, son studying in school. Son of a Local politician in that village, was very much interested on girls beauty. So, one day when her parents are out and her brother left for school, four men entered her home with a plan of raping her. In the mean time her brother came for lunch. she was threatened by them to do not disclose any thing and serve food to her brother. She did the same thing. After her brother left, she was raped by those four and hanged to death. After her funeral, parents left the village instead of filing a case against accused to save their another child as they were threatened.
For some people this incident is not a big thing. But think as if you are in the victim place. Even though she was in trouble, she helped her brother. This is called love. In my opinion that is what she thinks it is right and she likes to do. what she does not like is harassment by four men. This created one big ripple of thought in my mind.
Why shall I do things which troubles other. Why those people did the thing which she does not like... i.e suffering. No one is interested to do things which he does not like or suffer. When a person does not like suffer or do things which he does not like, He also does not have a right to suffer others or do things which other do not like.
From that moment I decided to avoid things which troubles other much. But it is not possible to completely eliminate the actions by us which troubles other. The only possibility is we can decrease the level of trouble. Every human being has certain capacity/patience to adjust to suffering/troubles/dislikes. So, I can at least try to avoid those actions which test human beings capacity to suffer. Of course there is no start or end to level of patience. It is personal judgment, how far can we stop ourselves from bad actions.
If one can think of another angle, What is the reason of this bad actions. I think answer lies in the words of Buddha.......Suffering......
It is the vicious circle. When a fellow suffers, he does bad actions, which suffers other. Again victim suffer others. It is like a virus. It is better to kill that virus, but it is not possible as it is inbuilt. but any one can stop it from spreading and very few can stop it from exposed from with in. The way to stop it lies in all the famous books .... religious, best sellers, psychology courses etc...
The answer is do not like any thing extremely(desire). If you did then do not try it be permanent. Because nothing is permanent. You enjoy as long as it is available. If possible retain it but do not take much tension. Then there will be not be any sufferings. Till now this is my perception of suffering and I am trying to implement it to be happy and have real enjoyment in life.
for the past two days I am feeling relaxed and surprisingly start enjoying in my work also. Previously i was much tense in performance, promotions, salary etc. Now it is entirely different case. I wish to conclude one thing. If you cannot love (not desire) the things you can at least stop dis-loving(desire).
